i am officially a resident of chicago, illinois! what an emotional feeling. i never thought i would feel sad relinquishing my californian id, but it hit me like a wave when i was handed my new one. my californian id was one of the last things i had to prove my roots and now i only have my vans collection and the use of saying "dude, totally" a lot. and soon my license plate will change, and im getting my own health insurance and car insurance and and and. i dont know. its a weird feeling being an official big kid and being on your own and having a full time job (!) and a life that is brand new and having new favorite restaurants and different tv channels and different weather and not having my family close by and and and and and im far from home, on my own, and right now i want nothing more than to be sitting on the floor of my kitchen, talking with my mom, and petting my pup. and eating in n out.
BUT i am grateful to be here, with my new friends who are turning into family, with p, in my tiny apartment, with a tiny kitchen, and drafty windows, and having new favorite restaurants, and seasons that i can get excited about, and having the job of my dreams, and being in a city with heart and pride. i guess im in a weird transition right now between wanting my own adventure and not being able to let go of my old one. i just know i cant wait to be home again. and i cant wait to make chicago my new one.
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